Thursday, May 27, 2004

Wednesday, May 26, 2004

today john leaves to go back to lubbock and begin his summer internship...

Tuesday, May 25, 2004

I, too once had a rabbit.

rabbit
Mean lil fellow, arn't you?


What Monty Python Character are you?
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Monday, May 24, 2004

10...9...8...7...

//10 bands/singers you've been listening a lot to lately:
1. White Zombie
2. Crystal Method
3. System of a Down
4. Cake
5. Thrice
6. Hole
7. Voodoo Glow Skulls
8. Korn
9. Nine Inch Nails
10. Rolling Stones

//09 things you look forward to:
1. seeing friends
2. peace and quiet
3. youth group this wed
4. finishing my script
5. getting to work camera on this film
6. shooting some photos
7. paying off my family
8. getting paid
9. re-earning the trust I've lost

//8 things you like to wear:
1. jeans
2. coats/jackets
3. vintage stuff
4. pj's
5. dress shirts
6. boots
7. soccer flats
8. stuff with a story

//07 things that annoy you:
1. John
2. Dad
3. immature people
4. myself
5. myself
6. bad drivers
7. Insurance companies

//06 things you touch most days:
1. my car
2. a coffee cup
3. my computer
4. my hair
5. my lighter
6. sun glasses

//05 things you do everyday:
1. sleep
2. eat
3. sleep more
4. listen to music
5. write

//04 people you want to spend more time with:
1. Ana
2. myself
3. mom
4. God

//03 movies you could watch over and over again:
1. Bel Lougosi "Dracula"
2. "Snatch"
3. "The Quiet Man"

//02 of your favorite songs at the moment:
1) "Perfect Drug - Nine Inch Nails"
2) "The Unforgiven (sinner mix) - The sandowski files"

//01 person you could spend the rest of your life with:
1) Ana - I trust myself with her.
I can't say I have found any pleasure in the passing of time and the accumulation of years...
But the knowledge of life keeps coming and with it the joy of the moment. This can carry us forward, when we would stand to dwell upon the sorrows of the present; or ponder the wrongs of the past.
In the words of Emerson, "There is one thing you can say about life, it goes on."

Wednesday, May 19, 2004

I seem talented at saying the wrong thing, in the course of the past few days (weeks?) I have managed to spread misery and discontent like a virus. I have become the "Outbreak" monkey.... spreading unhappiness through the population of my friends and acquaintances with a precision that has made even me doubt the randomness of those I have hurt. I seem to have a sixth sense that tells me someone is happy and how to best ruin it.
I open my mouth to share anything; whether it be joy or sorrow and crush the spirit of those around me, few stand a chance of surviving.

so in an effort to remove myself from the problem, and keep my mouth shut long enough to find a cure for my personality, I am posting this vague, general, some-what inappropriate, apology.
I also would like to apologize for the apology, most of the people I have hurt are my friends and deserve a better show of love than this, but I do not want to risk damaging these precious relationships further...
sorry,
Shannon

Saturday, May 15, 2004

Jetta

Just a quick opinion poll, should I sell my VW Jetta?
please don't ask why or mention any details you may know about my asking this... I just want your opinions. And would rather not have too much info posted on the state of my car, at least till I decide what to do to it.
More to come later.
Amber Bock
AMBER BOCH: You're more likely to be laughing at
people, not with them. You're a bit moody -
sometimes you would rather go out and have fun,
and sometimes you'd rather be left alone with
your beer. You consider yourself an
'intellectual' smart ass, and you take an equal
pride in the beer you drink.


The Greatest Beer Quiz, ever!
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Thursday, May 13, 2004

mRNA
You are mRNA. You're brilliant, full of important,
interesting information and you're a great
friend to the people you care about. You may
have sides to you that no one understands. But
while you understand more than most people,
you're only half-there most of the time.


Which Biological Molecule Are You?
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Tuesday, May 11, 2004

I have expensive hobbies, and I just dropped off $40 worth of pictures to be printed... But they are all pics I'm very proud of.
some of them I could have printed on my own, but I have neither the time or resources.
once I get them back I'll post them and take care of getting them to the appropriate people if I had promised you a print.
except for the pics I have promised to Ana, I want to devote the time to doing those myself... After all she's done for me its an honor for me to make her prints by hand, and a labor of love.
the rest of you matter too, that's why professionals are doing your prints, in fact my moms prints are being done by them. For Ana it will take longer, so I can do it myself. Hers may not be as good as the others but it will mean more to me.
peace out
-Shannon-

Saturday, May 08, 2004

Summer Hobbies

Just a repeat reminder; Schools letting out soon... come play!

The Following is a General Invite:
Tony, Justin, and I have begun to play ultimate frisbee in the parking lot of the Starbucks we work at (281 & 1604) ALL ARE INVITED

Games usually begin 30 45 mins after the store closes for business on any given day. all are invited regardless of skill level. we will be playing at least once a week, for the duration of the summer. We play at night, so the weather is good and we have a glow-in-the-dark frisbee. bring shoes you can run in.
IT'S DEFINATLY GOOD TIMES. BRING FRIENDS IF YOU SO WISH.
Thanks,
Shannon
peace, love and chicken grease.

Friday, May 07, 2004

sometimes anger blinds us,
sometimes we forget what we have for what we want.

Wednesday, May 05, 2004

Just for the hell of it!

I love Ana. Not in that way! Not in this way. Not even in that other way, that I can't explain.
I just sorta love her, like all friends should, and only the best ever do.

I am tired of acting like I am afraid of the consequences of my friendships... so im not backing down this time. so, there! If you don't like it you can talk to me like a man, or kick my ass like we are still in middle school.
this goes for more than just her, it goes for all my friendships.

I will no longer be afraid. I will always be there, and I will always love my friends. I love you! once again just not in that way. lol

Tuesday, May 04, 2004

Ana got a flower and this is all I can say.

Today I take on a world of stuff...
I have no idea what I am posting, or why I sit typing this all out... But still I type and still sit ponderig the words that flutter across the page as if pulled from my finger tips into the collective consciencenous of the internet. I feel the urge to shout. To scream and be heard by those who would snivel, to bellow and be recognized by those who respond. This is the singular goal of everypost. TO REPLY! To chant in unison or break the rhythm of life unchallenged; to say before a panel of our peers this, this is my reason, this is my being. I feel the urge to cheer on those who struggle in obscurity, though I myself am on no more stable footing, and stand just as near to the edge of reason. I still am compelled to offer my hand as support.
I have no idea what I just said, and even less of an idea what I may have meant by it, but it is said. And I feel better for it. So there!
I think in some way, this is my way of supporting the poor fool that picked a flower for a woman so deeply in love... but either way, it is all that came out when I sat before the keyboard this evening.

Three cheers for love, three cheers for fools in love, and three cheers for flowers.

Balls to the man who said "No." He never plucked a cactus to show he cared... and yet some fool would do this for my friend, that is to be respected.

Monday, May 03, 2004

Lying to myself?

"why do you take the words out of my mouth?? oh yea, its because you put them in my heart, and my heart lies to me"

I seem to have stumbled upon the reason I tend to find my self at a loss for words. I don't usually quote my self, because it always seemed a vain thing to do. Yet some how I feel compelled to share this one; it could just be that this quote means more to me, because it was directed at my bestfriend Ana. It could also be because it reflects a lot about our friendship. Being around her just takes all of the bullshit out of me, its a wonderful feeling.

some of you are fortunate enough to understand this sort of friendship. For those of you who cant, I will summarize. Its comforting to have someone who you can talk to without saying anything. Maybe this all sounds weird, but I take comfort in her presence, and there's nothing like that.

Some how I'm not sure what the quote means, but that is what it feels like. Funny how we can understand each other and still have no idea what either of us just said.

Saturday, May 01, 2004

So sue me, I have...

blog
I've never...

Have you ever played 'I've never'? I lose horribly every single time. So, this one's for you. it really sux when there not much that cant be said youve never done.

I've never been drunk.
I've never smoked pot.
I've never kissed a member of the opposite sex.
I've never kissed a member of the same sex.
I've never crashed a friend's car.

I've never been to japan.
I've never been to europe.
I've never ridden in a taxi.
I've never been in love.
I've never been dumped.
I've never shoplifted.
I've never been in a fight.
I've never had a threesome.

I've never snuck out of my parent's house
I've never pissed on myself.
I've never been arrested.
I've never made out with a stranger.

I've never been on a blind date
I've never lied to a friend.
I've never had a crush on a teacher.
I've never skipped school. (Only in college.)
I've never thrown up in public.
I've never purposely set a part of myself on fire.
I've never eaten sushi.
I've never been happy with myself.
I've never met a movie star.
I've never cheated in any test/exams.
I've never confessed my feelings to anyone before.
I've never run away from home.
I've never been on a stage.