Tuesday, June 29, 2004

I am currently overwhelmed by the urge to make something of my life

Sunday, June 27, 2004

I am incredibly happy today;
in fact this week has been great!

I wish I had more to say...
It has been one of those weeks where, no news is good news.
Hence, since I have no news, it is all good news!


... wow, this optimism thing can be confusing. ;) lol
Shannon

Saturday, June 26, 2004

Hooray for my bullshit post... it was fun, and I really enjoyed the chance to play with words.
I'll get back to more relevant post in the near future, but this is all for now.


P.S. somebody leave a frickin' comment every now and then. its satisfying to see them.

love you all,
Shannon

Thursday, June 24, 2004

I think, therefore I am not!

I am typing things because my fingers feel like moving.
it should be interesting for me to see exactly what will become of this pseudo-stream of conscienceness rant..
...Shit, I don't feel like saying anything, how's that for intellectual cock-tease? I sit here to type this out (if only for my own entertainment) because, I can only assume the lack of comments means that no one reads my page anymore. So, like some Freudian sucker, I just stare at a blank screen; till the only thing I can type is that I have nothing to type... Well ok, maybe its more like a "Jung" thing, after all this is more of a self-described ego-trip, the equivalent of mental masturbation, Fight Club style. I'm playing with the words on a page like a teenager fumbling at a bra, enticed by the possibility of some teat of reason and intelligence that may come out for me to nurse my mind upon.
perhaps I just need something to do? No? Yes? Maybe. That's it, I will do something.
Now I just have to figure out what that would be... For now I will think about it.
...
mmm, thinking, nope nothing, it just wont work. Oh well. I think, therefore I am not!
this was pleasant. Let me know if anyone reads this thing, and I may try to write less caustically about both myself and others.
LOL.
peace out.
Shannon



You're Ireland!

Mystical and rain-soaked, you remain mysterious to many people, and this
makes you intriguing.  You also like a good night at the pub, though many are just as
worried that you will blow up the pub as drink your beverage of choice.  You're good
with words, remarkably lucky, and know and enjoy at least fifteen ways of eating a potato.
 You really don't like snakes.

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You're Watership Down!

by Richard Adams

Though many think of you as a bit young, even childish, you're
actually incredibly deep and complex. You show people the need to rethink their
assumptions, and confront them on everything from how they think to where they
build their houses. You might be one of the greatest people of all time. You'd
be recognized as such if you weren't always talking about talking rabbits.



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Monday, June 21, 2004

More than I thought, to say...

Hello all:
Just saying that I am still here, but sadly, still have nothing to post about..
In other news, there is no other news. Currently, my life is rather deviod of things. They are cutting hours at work so I have nothing to do, and hence not much to talk about. Everyone else seems to have an increased work load as a result of summer; and so my social life has dwindled to sitting at starbucks talking with my regulars and my friends who are regulars...
perhaps this will change in the near future.

brief highlights include:
one of my closest friends Q came in from Dallas to visit.
Ana and I have had time to hang-out, for the first time in a while.
We are painting many rooms in the house.
I bought several DVD's
1- Bubba Ho-Tep
2- 3000 Miles to Graceland
3- Romeo and Juliet (with Leo DiCaprio)
4- Underworld (directors cut)

Friday, June 18, 2004

I am very drunk
suffice it to say i should be more careful with comestibles
... wow im gonna sleep now.
lest i say things that only make sense to me.
i wouldnt post except i feel the urge to speak out, and posting aviod the trouble assoicated wtih drunk dialing...
sorry for any grammar and spelling errors.
i acdept full responsibilty.

Thursday, June 17, 2004

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Tuesday, June 15, 2004

I am proud to continue the tradition of not dying.
I wish to thank those who make this possible, I couldnt have done it without you!

Sunday, June 13, 2004

I'm stubborn

Once again,
I'm still not dead.

sorry to ruin anyone's day with this news... :P

still kicking

Not dead yet!
Hopefully, that wont change...
I have nothing else to say.

Thursday, June 10, 2004

Yesterday was a good day for my little identity crisis.
The production company was given its first paid work since its inception, and I was asked to crew the shoot. We shot a music video for the band Des Demona. I was recognized for my professionalism and experience, and not once was my age mentioned as a drawback...
effectively, the shoot alleviated my fears and concerns associated with working for friends. Now I am regarded as an equal, and not marginalized to a role of
non-involvement that I had previously chosen for myself. Ana may be the only one of you who understands what this all means to me personally, but I'm sure the rest of you can understand where I was coming from. All in all, there are too many cool things to say about yesterday; but it will suffice to say that yesterday rocked and I am a kinder gentler more sociable person as a result of it.

Here it is, yesterdays promised explanation...

For the past few weeks I have been seeking to better understand myself and who I am; but not even been able to figure out where I am, let alone where I am going.
In effort to better understand myself and my situation I have been seeking counsel from those who I seek to emulate. The problem is I am emulating people who are simultaneously ahead of and behind me. I turn to people who have more education but less experience and ask about their experience, then I seek out someone with less education and more experience to ask about their education.
To make matters slightly more confusing I also find myself answering my own questions... but the answer is just the same question re-worded.
case in point:
Why are my parents still married? Because they love each other, and they love each other because they are still married.
Here's another one:
Why did the chicken cross the road?
Sorry, just kidding. At least I can still say I don't take myself too seriously, though maybe that is the root of all this... Who knows. Until I figure this out all I can say is expect more rambling, confused stream of consciousness posts about having no idea where I am or what's going on.

Me thinks it to be, my own damn fault!

Ana, I answered your comment, but I still don't know what I meant by it.
All that I know is, that I don't really understand myself or those around me...

Tomorrow I will post some of the more salient conundrums that plague me, and also share the goodness that makes them hard to understand.
Me thinks it to be; my own damn fault!

Tuesday, June 08, 2004

I need a hug?

Nothing to say, other than I dont really understand anything or anyone right now.
:( needless to say I am much confused, and very disorriented.
Ana, please explian yourself to me.. the more I think about it the more I need a hug.
The worst part is I dont know why.

Monday, June 07, 2004

Formatting

Should I move Lucas and Indiana Jones?
I happen to like both characters, so they will stay on my blog, however I am wondering about whether they should be moved elsewhere to make the blog more legible.
Gimme your opinions.
I may, or may not, succumb to peer pressure :) lol
-Shannon-

Sunday, June 06, 2004

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You're chocolate. You're the old soul type, people
feel that they have known you their entire
life. Many often open up to you for they view
you as thoughtful and trustworthy. Although
people trust you, you have a hard time trusting
them. You prefer to keep your feelings bottled
up inside, or display them very quietly. It is
alright to open up every once in a while.


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Friday, June 04, 2004

Spent a coupla hours hanging with Ana today.
What more can I say, today was good...
It's funny how friends can make or break your days.

In the end all we leave, is memories...
all we take, is time.
In the end, we are defined not by what we loved, but who.
In lieu of this, I can say I haved lived well.

Thanks to all my friends!
past, present, future, it's all the same.

Wednesday, June 02, 2004

new stuff

Funny how sometimes things don't work like planned...
I have gotten into more trouble with those I care about, over the past 3 weeks, than I have for clashing with those I couldn't give a shit about.
its all a very long story and contrary to popular belief doesn't involve Ana as much as most of my life usually does.
suffice it to say war is a bitch...
a close friend is being redeployed to Iraq, despite the fact that his first tour of duty almost killed him and essentially crippled him. and when I called one of my other friends about the recall to see if they were ok, or had also received the call; I was chastised for caring, and called an idiot.
next I got in trouble with Ana over some stupid things that I didn't need to say, cuz she already knows them, and they weren't very friendly of me to say. (I am an idiot, who cant keep his mouth shut). However I still want to meet your grandparents, it would be an honor and a privledge.
also my friend Richard came back from one of his in-famous "walk abouts"... Too much to mention, but that's a good thing. Suffice it to say Richard is always good for bringing out good in me, and giving me new direction. Ana may be my compass, but he is my engine.
(more to come on our adventures as they unfold)
that should be all for now,
Goodnight, sweet dreams, I am off to bed!